I am not who I used to be..........

[UltimateAKid]

I'm not who I used to be.
7 years ago maybe 8,
I was a kind, courageous and gentle-hearted kid.
I was in love with a girl her name was claire barkley.
We were friends and I didn't get to tell her how I feel.....
You wanna know why? Because Life is not fair.
I had to move away to a better house but leave what I loved behind.....my home,my friends and claire.
I was night when I had my first nightmare I kept crying
yelling no.It was my last night there.I twisted and turned
and kept saying that it's not fair.That's when it came or he came. The Darkness
I woke up completely changed personality.
Years later, I was mad at everybody I saw.Besides my family.I made new friends.......actually not alot.
I was made fun of from my faces I didn't know making.
What is interesting is that every photo I took were fake smiles.Apparently I was still nice to people without knowing it.I felt like was trapped in my own mind.Like
in a cage an infinite void of Darkness.
I felt like I was never going to love another woman
in my life.

[Um cool]

That's why we have memories. You only leave them behind if you forget about them. Someday you may be able to come back to them. If not, honor that memory instead of casting what ifs and whys to yourself. It'll make you go insane and truly consume you into a life of despair and darkness. Do not disregard the new, but don't forget the past. Focus on what there is right now. How are your new friends? Don't see them as objects and compare them to the old ones, value them as well.

[Vogel]

same thing happened to me lol did u also develop social anxiety?

[UltimateAKid]

Yes I did it felt bad.

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I moved again last year.....It is getting ridiculous.
And months later covid19 starts and my new girlfriend
dumps me.

[Vogel]

damn dude thats terrible thats a hard life man good luck with the future

[UltimateAKid]

Thank you very much

I will get my hands as dirty as I must as long as it helps to see my friends.

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I am starting High School trying to make new friends
but barely can react because of masks we need for
Covid19

[Finola]

Get friends?
I could never do that!
That is why I am in this forum, everyone here is my family! or so I hope.

I certainly wish you good luck, and keep in mind that you should always look on the bright side of life.
Not all things this year were dismal.

https://www.startvideojuegos.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/09/2.-Yuuta..gif

Take care of yourself and take advantage of every day of life that we have as a gift.

[thepyrohero]

i am so sorry... some months ago i had a hard story too... i don't wanna talk about it because it's really painful for me and i wanted to end my life...

[UltimateAKid]

Thank you Finola I am really starting to like you.
As for everyone else thanks for cheering me up.

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I really can't complain now?!
I am getting a computer next week!

[thepyrohero]

you're welcome dude ;)

[UltimateAKid]

I forgot how to post a new thread

[Vogel]

I forgot how to post a new thread

bottom of screen while browsing a forum category "+add new thread"

[UltimateAKid]

Okay thank you